Wednesday, 31 October 2012

Be bold and the mighty force will come to your aid



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Trying to instill hope on someone that has lost it all can be an extremely difficult task.  I spent most of my adult life trying to re-assure those around me that the Lord really does listen to our prayers and he answers them.  Today I am lost for words to say to my friend’s son who has lost both his parents and is praying that the Lord will reed him of his suffering and hurt, and take him away from this earth to be with his loving parents.

The pain of losing my friends is so immense and I just can’t find the right words to say to their son, I can’t find any comforting worlds to bring him back to life.  The pain is taking over my life, the pain is even blocking me from praying and I can’t even find the strength to call my Lord to resuscitate my wisdom and strength.

I hear people all over telling me to be bold and let the mighty force take over but it’s difficult, my strength is gone and my task gets tougher every day.  I owe it to my friends to be strong and re-assure their son that things will be better, re-assure him that in time the pain will subside and his heart will mend again.  He will never forget his parents and he will never stop hurting because he lost something he cherished but he needs to know that he can learn to live with the pain and learn to live without them.  He needs to be bold and let the mighty force to come to his aid.

If not now, then when?





Working through the streets of the township where I grew up in brings sadness and hurt in my heart.  The plight they face on a daily basis is too much to handle and to think they are just a small percentage of the population that is feeling the brunt of poverty and the ills imposed unto them by ruthless individuals that prey on them.

My eyes got filled with tears when elderly men and women cry about not receiving their old age grand and when you ask them why, they cannot even explain it and the officials responsible for their wellbeing have lost the will to serve them.  My heart breaks when young girl’s innocence is brutally taken by ruthless monsters that impose themselves on them by sexually abusing them and parents keep quiet about the deeds.  The epidemic has taken so much from us, children are orphans and have lost hope that their lives will ever be meaningful.  Unemployment is rippling our society, young people are idling on our streets with no hope for a brighter future.

The time has come for us to stand up and fight for our community.  The fortunate ones that have managed to break away from the bondages of poverty need to plough back and uplift our brothers and sisters who are in need of help.





Have you figured the second head is fake?




It was a glorious day, bright and full of laughter.  That was the day my sister got married to her ex-husband, their future looked bright and we were all happy about the union and we all thought it was the start of more beautiful things to come.  After the glorious occasion, my sister was called by women elders to give her advice on how to carry herself and how to take care of her marriage.  One elderly lady cried as she was about to give her advice. 

When she regained composure, she told my sister who was now given a new name by her in-laws, she advised her never to lose focus of her ambitions and that she should never allow anything to change her because the road ahead will be filled with up’s and down’s.  One in-law after the other told her of how she should regard herself equal to her husband, how they should overcome their obstacles hand-in and always be there for each other.  We left my sister with confidence, being re-assured that her new home welcomed her as their own child and knowing that she was an equal companion her marriage.

Little did we know when trouble will start to brew, my sister will feel like a helpless kid in her own home.  Little did we know that the very same in-laws will look the other way and tell her to patiently wait for the day when her husband will find his senses.  Little did we know the words uttered in front of those guests were empty words to fool us into believing that the inequality in marriages is being eradicated.  We all thought finally women were starting to be taken seriously and that the contribution in their household gave them a degree of authority.  My sister was told she was co-heading in their house and when trouble visited her home, when her husband decided when to come home and when not to sleep at home, she was reminded that the man is the head of the household and she must just bear with him.  Today I know that that second head that they spoke about on that memorable day was always fake, the inequality in our marriages is still there.  Pity I had believed we were indeed moving towards the right direction.




Monday, 29 October 2012

ITS ALRIGHT



They laugh at my downfall, they laugh at my demise and they laugh at my tears.  My world is shuttered into pieces, the light that used to shine so bright its now dim, I can hardly see my fingers when I place them in front of my face.

I am at my worst, days drag, getting out of my bed is a mission, I am weak and have lost my will to live.  A voice in my head tells me it’s alright, it’s alright if it is the will of my redeemer, the one I pray to will never forget me, he promised to be by my side through thick and thin.  This voice reinstates my belief that my Lord will never forsake me, his is not a man that lies, and he will get me out of this hole.

It’s alright, it’s alright, as much the pain hurts so much but it’s alright if it is his will.  My turmoil’s are temporary, the shadow of darkness will pass.  Yes, I believe that this too shall pass, indeed my faith will get me through and I shall learn to smile again.  It’s alright, it’s alright if the will of the Lord has taken over my life, I shall do nothing but pray for strength to get up and face the world. #smed12


He never gives up




I serve a mighty God, he never gives up on me, he never gives up on anyone and we should never give up on ourselves.  We call me in many names, we call him Jehovah, jahweh, Jehovah Dicken and we call him our Messiah and he is our source of hope when the walls crumble down on us,  he is the one we thank when we are at the pick of our lives.

I serve a living God, he never gives up on us, he never lose hope that our lives will be brighter, he keeps hoping that our careers will prosper and our marriages will work out.  My God has a plan for me and many others that place their faith in him.  I am a sinner but my God has never casted me away, he forgives me and welcomes me in his house.

I shall never give up, I will never lose hope.  I might be without a job and not know where my next meal will come from but I am certain that my God will make a plan.  My enemies may laugh at me today but I am certain that this storm is only temporary, it will pass and the sun will shine again and it will shine even brighter than it ever shone. #smed12

The winds of change are needed



Human life is losing its value in this world, a person can take another person’s life as if that life had no value, destroy it as if no one ever loved that soul and act in a manner that display that he or she has no regard for the people that will be hurt by the abrupt end of that person’s journey on this Earth. People kill each other and forget about the hurt they cause those left behind and many have lost hope in the judiciary system.


Women are raped and children are brutally stripped of their innocence by cruel beings who do not understand the hurt they cause to those they violate.  Societies harbor criminals and justify their horrible deeds.  House robberies are an everyday reality and morality has degenerated. 

I shall pray for the day when we will start to value the life of another being.  I shall pray for the day when children will walk freely on our streets and not fear for their safety.  I shall pray for the freedom that was gained through sweat and blood will not be undermined by those that think that they can do whatever they please with other people’s freedom.  The wind of change is needed in this world, people should begin to fear violating what they never created. #smed12

ITS ENOUGH




The time has come for us to declare an end to this suffering, we need to take it upon ourselves to fight the ills of this society.  We need to stand together and reclaim our country from those that think they own it and they can run everyone else amok .

Statistics display the downfall of our country, children and woman are raped every day, people are murdered on a daily basis and our streets are becoming unsafe by the day.  To top it all, even our schools are a battlefield for gangsters that target their rivals in our doors of learning.

When will we say enough is enough, when will we stop folding our arms and hope someone will sort out the problems.  When will we stop protecting criminals that are close to our hearts.  The time is now for all of us to take up the fight and demand peace and stability in our country.  Enough is enough, we cannot continue to look the other way, and we need to face the demons of our society.  The struggle continues and the onus is on all of us to make sure that we reclaim our beautiful country from the hands of the criminals that seem to think they own it. #smed12

Wednesday, 17 October 2012

Soldier on fighter




Reading a message that said “before you give up, think about the reason why you held on so long” made me determined to fight even harder for my survival.  I stood for a moment and thought about the reasons I got into the challenge and why I should just give up and allow fate to take its cause.  A little voice in me told me to  re-read the message and apply it to my current situation.

A voice asked me who ever told me that the road will be easy and that there would be no obstacles that I will encounter, the voice of doom wanted to nullify whatever was said by the voice I regard as a voice of reason sent to me to guide me out of the gutter.  I pondered hard about the route I have travelled thus far, the uphills and the downfalls and I decided to soldier on and fight for my survival and regain my strength.

I made a declaration to myself, that I Ayanda Mdala refuse to give up on my dreams, I am woman of substance and I am determined to rise against all odds.  Because I have been hurt many times, I will never give up on happiness and no weapon formed against me will ever prosper. #smed12




My big wish






The good Lord has entrusted me with two of his angels, he chose me to raise two beautiful souls who love and appreciate the beauty of this world.  The day I laid my eyes on them,  I knew for sure that I was the chosen one, I was highly favored and blessed.  I made a promise to my creator to love and care for the gift give has given me and rejoice in being a mother.

I promised my ancestors and my God that I will raise them to love and appreciate the value of other people, girls that will brighten the room with their smile and presence.  I promised my Lord that I will utilize the time granted to me to instill a sense of pride, teach them to be proud of who and where they come from and reassure them that people will love them for their originality, not a photocopy of someone else.

Looking at how my babies turned out, I am please with my hard work thus far, the sleepless nights and any other responsibility that come with motherhood have produced beautiful and happy souls that are bubbling with laughter.  The road ahead is still but I thank the Lord for granting me an opportunity to be a mother, a wish that never comes through to thousands of other women across the world.  My greatest wish is to stay true to my promise and let the grace of the Lord blossom in their lives. #smed12





Letter of a broken hearted girl


I lay awake reminiscing about days gone by, the days when you use to call  or text to tell me how much you love and adore me.  Tears roll down my eyes when I replay in mind the sweet words you use to say to me.  OH, how I miss your smile, your hugs, your laugh and everything you did that completed my life and made me a joyful woman.
 
 
 
 
 
 
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The hurt caused by your departure in my life is so unbearable.  My heart longs for your right next to me, it longs for the little things we did together, it longs for that tight hug you use to give me whenever I felt like my world was crumbling down on me.  I long for your touch that will wipe the tears from my face and remind me that things will be fine, the pain is just temporary.

If I was granted one wish right now, I would wish to see you and say the things I hoped I said when I had the chance.  Death be not proud, for you took away the only man that truly loved me and you left me with immense pain and misery.  The world tells me to accept that thing will never go back to what they used to be.  The day I learned of your passing, a part of me died too and I am not sure whether I have the energy to bring it back to life. #smed12

My daily prayer


Heavenly Father, I thank you for the gift of life, a sinner like me has seen yet another day.  I have sinned and gone against your commandments, I kneel before you and beg for forgiveness, I know you are a loving and forgiving God, you will never leave my side, may you redeem me and rid me of all the things that are not acceptable to you. 






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Heavenly Father be with the woman that you trusted with my life, the lady you blessed with your wisdom to raise me, those that assisted her in raising me , thy faithful God, bless my family.  The world needs blessing, I pray upon you to shower the world with blessings and rid us of all the evil we do to each other.  Bless thy Lord my co-workers and all those that wish us well and as a believer I submit my being to you and allow you to use me as you wish and accept you as my savior forever and ever Amen. #smed12








Love that hurts


Love is such a wonderful feeling, one that makes   an individualet down his or her guard.  When love hurts the recipient of that love then that love is extremely dangerous.  Observing from a distance what has disguised itself as love has done to a person close to my heart leaves me with sleepless nights and a never ending prayer that the Lord will open her eyes and make her see that all is not well.




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It kills me to witness the pain of a dear friend who is trapped in a relationship that brings hurt and humiliation in her life.  It is painful to me to see a beautiful soul that was once perceived to be a strong individual, now slowly lose herself and the ignoring the foundation that determine who she is.  True love is not build on lies and constant need to conceal the bruises that have been given to you but the horrible act that has disguised itself as love.  Love is pure and caring, love does not inflict any pain, it shield one from it.  May the good Lord answer our prayers and remove the dark blindfold that covers the eyes of my friend because there is not much that we can do except to be there for her when she needs us and when she has finally seen the light. #smed12




The love that she deserves





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Listening to my 18 year old niece reminisce about the kind of husband she wants to marry and the kind of love she wants to experience throughout her life makes me want to kneel down and pray to God to bless her with a loving a caring person she yearns for.  A prayer that is a bit unrealistic because in life many of us have been through heart wrenching periods all in pursuit of love.


 
To mention a few on my niece list of things she hope her fairytale husband will do are the very same things that have caused a lot of heartache to the recipients of love gone wrong.  My niece wants someone that will love her unconditionally and treat her with respect and dignity that she deserves,  a man that she will be able to talk to and share her intimate thoughts.  Yes, my niece wants a bestfriend that will understand her joy and fears, someone that she trust and assured that he will forever be by her side.

Dreaming about that special person is not a crime, my only prayer is that when she gets to a point where she entrust someone with her heart, she will understand that there are no guarantees in this game called love, anything is possible.  In the meantime I will pray with her for the love that she deserves and hope the good Lord will shower her with everlasting love. #smed12